She Muses

If I Seem Different…..

My Facebook timeline is normal for the most part. Twitter feed is still cluttered with various questions and such. I’m still making it to my commitments and enjoying myself while I’m there. All seems to be pretty cool. You wouldn’t know by looking at me that I had a not so great week.

Of course, I will not get into the details of it all. I’ll just showcase a few emotions that I felt.

  • Anger
  • Disappointment
  • A sense of worthlessness
  • Anxiety
  • Relief

These were present last weekend when I had my little break down with the exception of one. Relief. That’s a new one. Why Relief? Hmmm. Now that is an interesting question. How can I feel a sense of relief? I’m freaking out ova here!

My entire week wasn’t bad. Not at all. I had the opportunity to spend some time with someone very special to me. It was time spent enjoying every moment instead of worrying every moment. I took that time to forget. Well, let’s not say forget. Let’s say postpone. I took the time to postpone my ill feelings and replace them with bliss. At least for those moments.

No one knows the full extent of my woes. No one will either. Not for a while. In the meantime, I will withdraw. Like I always do. Just until I can figure some things out. There are some core issues that I need to address with myself before I can move forward with anything on the outside anyway. So really this is a good thing. Anything for self improvement, right?

I may still blog every now and then. Who knows, a post or a few about this new venture of mine is bound to show up here. This withdrawal period may not last as long as I think it will. We’ll just have to see about that…..

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