I lumped these two days together in this post for a reason. To me they were linked and needed to remain that way. Both of these days hit hard on my mental. I was told that this was normal and to roll with it.
Acceptance
I sat for most of this day trying to figure out what I can truthfully accept about myself, my situation, etc. I came up with a few easy ones…..
? I accept the fact that I am SILLY. That’s just me y’all. I am silly sometimes when it is not appropriate to be silly…and I don’t care! Lol. My silliness is a part of me and that is something that you just have to get used to…period. 😛
? I accept my BODY. This was a very easy one for me. With the exception of that time period that I had extra pounds added onto my frame, I’ve always loved how I looked in the mirror (yes I look at myself naked in the mirror. You should try it sometime. It’s very liberating).
? I accept all DECISIONS that I have made to get me to where I am today. I am the person I am today due to all of these decisions. Now, granted, I am changing a few of these things with this challenge. Notice that I said DECISIONS. The things that I am changing are things that I cannot accept. Which brings me to the dilemma that I had for most of this day.
There were things that I just could not accept. My list of acceptable and unacceptable items was very one sided with stuff mostly on the unacceptable side. I was confused and very frustrated with how things were turning out. After some clarification I learned that it is OK to have this happen. These are just things that I flat out will not accept…these are my standards.
Ok…Cool. All is well in my world again. 😀
Forgiveness
This day was VERY interesting. I won’t dive into too much…won’t put TOO much of my business out there. Lol. Let’s just say that there was one item that I could not bring myself to forgive. Accepting it is one thing. Forgiving is something totally different. I realize that this item will hold me back in some way, shape, or form. Trust and believe that I am working on getting to the point where I can forgive. It’s an ongoing process.
Today’s theme is Belief. This is going to be a fun day. Stay tuned tomorrow for how fun this day was. 😀