I had a lovely conversation with my best friend this afternoon. One of the topics of that conversation was about us completing our 33rd year. For her it has been eye opening and new. Very unexpected. She feels very positive about what is to come for her during her road to 34.
Me? Well…
I admitted that the beginning of my 34th year was a bit rocky. I wasn’t really in a nice place for the majority of that time. Yes, there were great moments. There were also many positive aspects. The anxiety of my situation took most of my energy which made things very uneasy up until mid summer. That’s what happens when you allow someone to make you feel like nothing.
I haven’t really been completely honest with myself or you guys since my birthday. Wasn’t that something that I wanted to work on for my blog? I wanted to be able to share more. Let it all out whether it was positive or negative. It all deserved it’s time on stage.
Well here we are. Things were not always so hot. I hid most of it by going out and forgetting about it. The movies. The bar. My assortment of bookstores. Even my dancing. Yes, they have all helped. A few of my distractions were not really needed in the quantities that I experienced them in.
Eventually I got myself together, left my pity party, and got on the path that will get me back on track. It’s a good thing too. It would have been a shame to have an entire year of my life wasted. A serious shame.
So now I’m on a path. I need to get back to my road to greatness. My journey needs to continue. This little detour was educational but now it’s time to move it right along. The question is at what point do I start? That’s something that I’ll need to figure out. Support is there even though sometimes I believe it isn’t. I just need to know where to look.
You see? This is what happens when one has time to actually be STILL and REFLECT. One comes to the conclusion that what has been just wasn’t working and a change needs to happen. This change is with my self within. I need to cleanse from the inside out. I need to take in more positive energy. More knowledge to apply.
I need to stop being afraid because YES I still am at times. It’s frustrating. I need to just go for it. Whatever IT is at that particular moment in time. I also need to have the CONFIDENCE to do so!
So here is to the remainder of my 34th year being extraordinary.
My education continues.
Watch out now! 😉
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